Popcorn. I stare at the ceiling and think of what has come to pass. A surreal life I seem to be living at times. It feels like I'm in a dream and I cant wake up. Other days feel so real, I just cant believe it. As I lay here thinking the day away, I suddenly snap back into reality. My Johnny will be home any time now. Everyday feels like a repeat of yesterday. When I see his face the whole world seems disappear, and I feel complete once again. Again I enter into my own dream world. The hard part is I am awake and Ive got to deal with what I constantly shut out.  Feelings, emotions, people. I'm a complex girl and Ive still got a lot to learn. I dont always see the light at the end of the tunnel, but somehow I always end up getting through things. Ive made mistakes, and Im sure theres plenty more to come.